Warmth

To be alone or to be with others. What would your choice be, if it would be for a life-time?

Being alone can be nice. I enjoy having my space, some silence as I am quite sensitive to lots of noise and impressions at the same time. But answering on my question above… I would not choose to be alone. I would choose to be with others.

I wonder if my life would not be easier, if I would choose the ‘normal’ way of living. Having a plan for a couple years, a ‘real’ house, a pet.

My mind is telling me: ”you are running away!” That ‘running away’ sentence… how many times friends or family, did not mention it to me. And although I am improving step by step, I have still difficulties not to care about others opinions and simply go my way. Perhaps my way is not a ‘settled’ way? A good name would be ‘butterfly’. I am curious. Something inside of me, wants to live every day like it’s the last day. Not only sit on one flower and watch to other beautiful flowers around me. No, I also want to touch them with my beautiful butterfly buttocks.

People
To me, what I do, seems to become less and less important. You know what I really care about? People. From a smile of a stranger to a big hug of my father. That creates a happy, warm feeling inside of me. Caring for others too, whether it’s being simply there for someone in need or sharing a homemade cake with friends. But also being cared for.

Reading the news, about the information-overflow nowadays. That employees can’t handle it anymore. About kids, having serious health problems on a very young age caused by a very high screen use. Looking around me, watching how people run from A to B.  A guy in the gym, having a very serious business call while working out. A girl, next to me in the bus uploading a story on Instagram and refreshing 5 times straight after, curious if someone already watched it (that was the moment I deleted my Instagram account).

Impossible to describe in one single word how I feel. I can give you one word though, about what I miss sometimes.

Warmth.

Lots of love to all of you.

Mindful conscious living

One Reply to “Warmth”

  1. Ich habe Deine Geschichte gelesen, so offen, unglaublich, nun schlaf schoen und ganz viel Waerme von Deiner Mama🛌🌺

    Op ma 15 apr. 2019 om 22:02 schreef SLOW NOMAD

    > Deike Louise posted: ” To be alone or to be with others. What would your > choice be, if it would be for a life-time? Being alone can be nice. I enjoy > having my space, some silence as I am quite sensitive to lots of noise and > impressions at the same time. But answering on my q” >

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